Tuesday, March 21, 2006
It has been confirmed. This year I am going to E3!
I can't figure it out. I am going to E3, I got a job promotion, I am doing well saving for a house, I am more involved with my WoW guild, I have good friends and family all around me, and yet I am dealing with depression. I just started seeing a 'mental health specialist' and have been prescribed medication and will be having regular counseling sections. It feels like it should be something easy to get over, mind over matter, Jesus is all you need,and all that jazz. I have been trying to deal with it for 6 to 7 months now, and all that it is accomplishing is me loosing my faith, my friends, and my happiness. My friends have been a great help to me, but I am causing problems with them now. I am getting frustrated with myself, and I have taken it out in verbal anger at them a few times, and they are getting frustrated with me because I have not made any progress with all their help. The last time I lashed out verbally at a friend, it was a wakeup that I need to get professional help. It scared me because, I was loosing a second good friend. I now try to interact with friend as little as possible, so I don't risk loosing them. My doctor told me that I should start doing better after a few months. I hope so.
I will try posting more on games and movies, I know I have been slaking on posting (not that anyone reads them). I also may make the occasional post like this.
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I can't figure it out. I am going to E3, I got a job promotion, I am doing well saving for a house, I am more involved with my WoW guild, I have good friends and family all around me, and yet I am dealing with depression. I just started seeing a 'mental health specialist' and have been prescribed medication and will be having regular counseling sections. It feels like it should be something easy to get over, mind over matter, Jesus is all you need,and all that jazz. I have been trying to deal with it for 6 to 7 months now, and all that it is accomplishing is me loosing my faith, my friends, and my happiness. My friends have been a great help to me, but I am causing problems with them now. I am getting frustrated with myself, and I have taken it out in verbal anger at them a few times, and they are getting frustrated with me because I have not made any progress with all their help. The last time I lashed out verbally at a friend, it was a wakeup that I need to get professional help. It scared me because, I was loosing a second good friend. I now try to interact with friend as little as possible, so I don't risk loosing them. My doctor told me that I should start doing better after a few months. I hope so.
I will try posting more on games and movies, I know I have been slaking on posting (not that anyone reads them). I also may make the occasional post like this.
